i don’t believe you

my mail woman delivered a package to my house yesterday. i thanked her and she asked if i had a bottle of water. of course i ran in and got her two and a little snack pack of cashews. it’s still close to 100 degrees here in houston. the afternoon humidity is ungodly. she looked […]


what a week. i got to the lowest low. it was a deep, dark, hallow drop. a free fall with emotions so big and heavy i couldn’t do anything but plunge deeper. darker. i had a choice. die… or live. made a therapy appointment. drank some water. called my friends. called my mom. read two […]

at least i changed my clothes

i changed my clothes today. my oldest pointed out over breakfast that i’ve been wearing the same shirt since sunday. i put on workout gear. socks and shoes and everything. but then i had a panic attack. took a pill. meditated while the dog licked my ankles. there’s only 2 things on my list today. […]

not okay

i am not okay. just not okay at all. i’ve been in a hole. a deep, deep, dark one. i am so hurt and lost and angry. i’m scared. i’m anxious and i’m having trouble getting out of bed. i’ve been moving only when my kids are around. drinking, crying, staring, sleeping. it’s just about […]

milestones and wishing him dead

divorce is not for the weak. we’ve been at this breakup for 2 months now. 2 months. it feels like we still have so far to go but tonight i’m allowing myself to remember that we’ve already survived several big divorce milestones. i won’t torture myself by reviewing them all but it’s good to know […]

life rafts

this week, y’all. this week. never before have i dealt with such gross, disgusting, skanky drama. i was unprepared for the pounding that was coming. wave after wave from a giant emotional hurricane nearly drown me. eventually, i will write about it. and about the incessant screaming thoughts that loop on repeat in my head. […]

low, meet lower

i do some event planning. mostly party decorations for large events at my church. imagine a giant room, 200 guests, 20+ tables…and a $500 decorating budget. for real, i’m not kidding. $500. i kill myself for these parties. obviously, i don’t have the budget for flowers or to hire anyone to make anything…so i craft […]

some somethings

my kids have been gone for the past 9 days. 9. days. it’s the longest i’ve ever been apart from them. they flew all the way to phoenix by themselves to spend some time with my family. i, you see, am in no condition for (mostly) anything. so i stayed behind. on the way to […]

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