what a week. i got to the lowest low. it was a deep, dark, hallow drop. a free fall with emotions so big and heavy i couldn’t do anything but plunge deeper. darker. i had a choice. die… or live. made a therapy appointment. drank some water. called my friends. called my mom. read two […]
i changed my clothes today. my oldest pointed out over breakfast that i’ve been wearing the same shirt since sunday. i put on workout gear. socks and shoes and everything. but then i had a panic attack. took a pill. meditated while the dog licked my ankles. there’s only 2 things on my list today. […]
i made a therapy appointment today. i’m pretty sure when you start wishing you were dead it’s time to make the call. these feelings are just too big, you know? they’re relentless. no escaping them. surely that’ll fix me up.
i am not okay. just not okay at all. i’ve been in a hole. a deep, deep, dark one. i am so hurt and lost and angry. i’m scared. i’m anxious and i’m having trouble getting out of bed. i’ve been moving only when my kids are around. drinking, crying, staring, sleeping. it’s just about […]
my anxiety is high today. i’ve meditated, foam rolled, put on something pretty. i don’t even have much to do today. it’s not my schedule that’s triggering me. every sound. every ding from my phone is threatening a panic attack. just popped a pill. it dissolved on my tongue. please oh please let this anxiety […]